So many things, just running through my mind. I'm trying to catch one and focus on it. But it's a slippery little sucker.
My life is so different now.
I went back and deleted all previous posts on here. I know there are still out there in the ether somewhere. The deep interwebs. But I don't care. I deleted them because I wanted to. I'm a different person now. I'm a happier person. A content person.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still wickedly twisted. And my sense of humor hasn't changed. I just now have someone who accepts me for who I am... off kilter sense of humor and all. Best of all... he has that humor in him as well.
It all makes sense.
Yes. Life is different now.
It's amazing how if one thing clicks. Other things fall into place.
I'm currently on surgical leave. Had a full blown hysterectomy. Stupid shit going on down in the baby maker. So, now that's gutted and I'm on my way to feeling so much better. My youngest being 13... had they done this when I asked after she was born... I never would've had this issue! But some dumb ass health insurance wanker is behind a desk calling shots on my vagina. So I had to go with the flow (so to speak) and try other things before they were like 'oh, okay, we'll approve this then.'
Back to being on leave... I've been using this time to prime up the resume and look for a new job. I'm fully, 100%, without pause... DONE with being a bartender. I'm tired. I'm tired of the late nights. I'm tired of not being home with my family at night. I'm tired of not having time off with my man (since he has a big boy m-f, 9-6 job). I'm tired of not being appreciated by the company (management specifically). That was one of the reasons I took this position as bartender with this hotel, I wanted to move up. Been passed over twice for a position I am perfectly qualified for, and would excel at. Because my supervisor likes to surround herself with men. The 2 men she hired both went down in flames. One, it took about 6months. Second, didn't even make it a month and a half.
Anyways, I'm moving onward and upward. I've applied for a couple positions. Had a really great interview today (after initial contact and a phone interview) so, I'm crossing my fingers and accepting all good juju sent my way!
My kids... well... they are amazing.
Have had a few touchy situations with my daughter (13) and her going through her first relationship. Whoa... talk about tough. But summer break did it's wonders and ended it without much fanfare. Basically him texting her "... you don't even try to see me when you're at your dad's house... it's like you don't want to be with me. Maybe we should end this." AND her response being "okay bye." She has decided to use my address as her primary addy and go to a different school this year. Which suits me just fine, that way she can make new friends and such.
My son (14) is just that... my son. He's got such a dark, witty sense of humor. And I am so proud of him. He's a whip. Other than being upset that his new school doesn't offer German as a foreign language option... he's pretty happy about going into high school.
The rest of my family is just that... family. I adore my immediate family. The extended, I'm not too sure. I tend to block them from my life. They all think they are so high and mighty, and in truth they are redneck dumb asses that seem to think they can spout hate in the name of patriotism. No thanks. You're no family of mine.
My Man. Oh boy. This guy. What an amazing addition to my chaos. He fits so well. Have you ever just had someone come into your life and you're like - whoa... what took you so long. You belong here. That's him and I. Although we fully admit that had we met 10yrs ago, we likely wouldn't have meshed. Or maybe not as well. We've both had to go through some shit to get here. And we arrived, flailing arms and screaming "I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR YOU!!"
So there you go. An update on my life.
I promise to be on here more often and vent my little heart out about crazy shit that consumes my every day. And I'm sure you can't wait to hear it!
Til then... 😜
